The silence of shame among patients...
Many patients felt stigmatized: “we are quickly categorized. As soon as something happens in my neighborhood, they say ‘Ah, addicts!’. It’s disdain, marginalization” [P1]. Other patients expressed self-derogation: “I sometimes look at myself, at my dirty clothes and unwashed hair and say ‘well, you look dreadful today, you’re so pale!” [P1]. Furthermore, the addictive patient verbatim was filled with shame: “Of course there is shame, because you know that you will be asked questions about your private life” [P7].
Patients isolated themselves to avoid this shame and stigmatization: “I drank in secret, even in my parent’s house. I found myself in awful shape” [P2], “I was in a dreadful state. I’ve never been like that before. I was in the middle of the city, and I couldn’t even articulate two words. Babbling is very degrading. But finding myself with my arms tied in a bed is also very degrading” [P4].
This feeling of isolation reinforced the feelings of loneliness and the difficulty patients had talking about it: “cannabis is still very controversial” [P3], “these questions involve our private lives, we don’t all want to go out and reveal our private lives” [P8]. When patients talk to physicians, they described how the feeling of shame led to self-censorship: “When I’m with the doctor, she seems sweet, but when I wanted to talk to her about it, I withdrew, I didn't dare” [P6].
Addiction specialists described this patient censorship as a major barrier to detecting addiction. Patients are often ashamed of their substance use and cannot talk freely with their physician about it meaning they are “unable to seek help for a long time” [AS7]. Furthermore, many patients described self-stigmatization further preventing them from talking openly. They feel people look at them when they are out in public maintaining a “form of shame, or moral judgment” [P3].
... echoes the silence of embarrassed physicians
Many addiction specialists mentioned that physicians fear broaching the subject resulting in self-censorship of the physician. “Physicians are afraid of the patient’s reaction. They fear causing shame and guilt which would end the discussion when in fact, it often starts it” [AS2]. Furthermore, specialists discussed that physicians are sometimes afraid “of not knowing how to evaluate the addiction, of not knowing what to do, and of not knowing who to refer the patient to” [AS1]. They suspected that GPs rationalize addictive disorders, particularly non-substance addictive behaviors such as gambling: “Physicians can feel like it’s not their problem, and when you ask the general population, they feel it’s a choice, not a disease” [AS5]. Furthermore, some GPs may feel that the substance the patient is addicted to is the “last thing they have left, so maybe you shouldn’t take it away” [AS7].